This DAY.

I’d really be okay if it would go ahead and end. From rude customer emails to a less than stellar MFM appointment, I’ve had better days.

My parents came to town today because my mom had to work here and my dad watched Jax during my appointment (which Jax LOVED, he thinks his Papaw is the bee’s knees.) My dad helped with some projects in the nursery and my mom brought me a super cute dress and some summer sandals for Jax, I love my parents! My dad is also helping me get squared away some of the legal/financial matters of having my own business, which is just not fun, and I won’t lie, pretty stressful. Necessary evil though I guess.

During the ultrasound, the tech kept asking “have you had a lot of severe pain recently? contractions?” Yes to contractions, no to pain. Those questions alone are enough to make a momma worry, obviously, and of course the ultrasound tech isn’t “allowed” to tell me what she sees so I waited 20 minutes for the doctor to come in to tell me what was going on.

I just stared at these pics of my adorable nugget and tried not to think about it. This may just look like an indecipherable blob to you but I love her.

My cervix looks okay (right at 3 when I’m resting) but when I push/bear down (weird, the first time they’d had me do that) it did decrease quite a bit.

My MFM wasn’t really concerned about that though, more of the issue today was the fact that the placenta is now pulling back from the uterine wall a sizable amount. This isn’t just a subchorionic bleed like I had early on in my pregnancy; she explained that that was just the membrane pulling back, but this is the actual placenta pulling away.

Obviously, this isn’t a good thing. If it keeps up, I’ll probably know it because it will be very painful. She wants to see me back weekly for the foreseeable future to keep an eye on things.

My body is ridiculous. I mean really. Can we please do SOMETHING right? Endometriosis, cysts, cervical cancer, incompetent cervix, irritable uterus and now this? Really? I honestly shouldn’t complain because I’ve been very blessed with two healthy babies thus far, but I can’t help feeling like my body is the most useless thing ever. :(

I think this is a lot of the reason that I’m hesitant to schedule a c-section. I feel like maybe, just maybe, I could deliver naturally and successfully and feel like my body did something absolutely the way nature intended. Then, I realize that I probably shouldn’t give it so much credit or take the risk. I don’t really know where I stand right now.

Comments

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    I think you are perfect! Don’t stress over this – just another “bump in the road”. Keep positive, think positive and I KNOW it will turn more positive. Great to see you today and can’t wait to see the finished room – cover on way but just shipped out today…. Love you lots! Mom

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    Ah Becca! I’m so sorry you had a rough day! I can only imagine the stress! We’ll be praying that things calm down for you and that no additional issues come up. Jory needs to keep cooking! You can do this!

  3. 3

    Oh Becca, I’m so sorry your day isn’t going better! I agree with Teresa- keep your head up and hang in there! We’re praying for you and your little lady :)

  4. 4

    I hate that you have to go through such stress while carrying little Jory. She will be such a blessing to you when she finally makes her debut!

    You are doing SUCH a good job as a momma to her and persevering through all of this. I will keep you in my prayers!

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    It sounds like life has definitely thrown you some curve balls, but part of what I admire about you is that you never seem to let them (at least the ones I’d heard about from my Bump days)keep you down for very long. I will pray that things work out well for you guys!

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    You know what I say, I say you can pout be upset and worry and be down for just a short while. You know why? Cause you had a bad day. And then because you are carrying Jory the little bundle of joy she is and because you have Jax and your family you will make it through it! And the nasty emails just brush them off you do good work and you do it at a competitive price so mean people can suck it! You will continue to be in my prayers!

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    Anonymous says:

    Feeling for you, Becca!! Just remember, w/Jax you didn’t know all this and now you are SO much more informed/ready/under skilled care! You are really on top of things this time!!

    love, dlk

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    I know how you feel Becca. It was a struggle to get Mason here, but in the end it was worth every tear & emotion. Its tough right now, but your strong & you will get through this. God only gives us what we can handle….though some days it seems like too much..its not.

    Praying for you

    Mrs. B

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    Oh Becca I’m so sorry you’re having such a rough time. It is NOT fair. I’ll continue praying for you!

  10. 10

    What a day. :*( I really hope that sweet little girl holds on a bit longer. and that crazy placenta stays put!
    Best of Luck!!

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    Ah, I am sorry! I hope that little baby girl keeps cooking for the next few months and that she is perfect and healthy. And, as for rude CS e-mails-well, that is just crazy. I have ordered from you several times and you have always been so pleasent. It is their loss!

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    Anonymous says:

    First of all, I can’t imagine why on EARTH your customers would think they have the right to be rude to you via e-mail. As a satisfied past customer, I can say there was no dissatisfaction whatsoever in my dealings with you. :)

    Secondly, placental abruption is very serious and I have a friend who had the same thing happen around 10 weeks and she was able to make it to 34 weeks!!! Since it didn’t happen until so late in your pregnancy maybe you’ll still go all the way, however, the stress of labor can cause the placenta to complete detatch causing very serious problems and an emergency situation so I would err on the side of caution and schedule the c-section just to insure a healthy baby and Mama. Of course discuss this with your doctor, but I would not chance labor with a slightly detached placenta.

    Remember, all that matters in the end is a healthy baby and Mama!!!!

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    Take it easy Becca, and don’t let it get ya down! Its great that they are keeping such a close eye on you, that alone will help keep the worries away.
    And I agree with anon, why would anyone be rude to you! I hope my email to you didn’t seem that way, if so, I would have never have meant it to be!! You’re the best to work with!
    Jenn

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    Hi Becca, sorry I haven’t visited in a while. Just wanted to say looooove the ultrasound pic! Take it easy, and don’t worry.

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    It sounds like life has definitely thrown you some curve balls, but part of what I admire about you is that you never seem to let them (at least the ones I’d heard about from my Bump days)keep you down for very long. I will pray that things work out well for you guys!

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    Anonymous says:

    Feeling for you, Becca!! Just remember, w/Jax you didn’t know all this and now you are SO much more informed/ready/under skilled care! You are really on top of things this time!!

    love, dlk

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