I’m about to talk about my health here for a bit. I’m fairly certain that most all of my readers are female, but just wanted to throw out there that this post will be about feminine health. If that bothers you, you’re welcome to click that red X in the corner.
Ok so I have been bleeding for almost 7 weeks non-stop. It’s a pain, and I have had bad what I call “deathcramps” on and off for the last 7 weeks. I have no idea what’s going on, but I do know that when I bleed, endometriosis spreads. When endo spreads, my fertility is in grave danger. My mom reminded me of this in no uncertain terms last night and basically told me to get my butt to a doctor. I needed to hear that to get my act together, thanks mom. Really, thanks.
I have wanted to find a new doctor ever since my birth experience from Hades, but I have put off making the effort of calling around to find a better hospital to deliver at [with better NICU facilities] and then find a doctor that delivers at that hospital. Today I finally did it. I called around and found a doctor that I think might be a good fit. I explained that I need to be seen soon both for a consultation and to see what the heck is going on with me. Shockingly, they had a cancellation for tomorrow morning so they could get me in at 9am. This is wonderful because 1. my sister is in town & can watch Jax while I go. SO great. 2. like I said, I need to be seen SOON.
So I’m nervous. Scratch that- I’m plain scared. I’m scared that we will talk it over and she will say that I can’t try to deliver vaginally before pushing me into a c-section. I’m scared that she won’t understand just how horrible my last birth experience was and how particular I would like to be about my next one. And I’m scared to find out what is going on with my body. Hopefully it’s nothing and some new BC can get me back on track, we will see.
My sister came back with us from my parents’ house this morning & we are loving having her here! It had been way too long since we saw her last so I am soakin’ up the sister time! She’s only staying til tomorrow, but it’s better than nothing I guess! On our way out of town we stopped by my friend Gini’s house to pick up a hand-me-down toy from her boys for Jax! He loves this thing! He spent at least an hour tonight playing with it and head-bobbing to the music – so cute.
Anyway, wish me luck. =